So I've got that Janet Jackson song stuck in my head..kind of..Slash whenever you have a song stuck in your head, it's only one part of the song, and I don't even think that those are the correct words to the song..

It's almost six in the morning, and I don't feel like going to sleep. Besides, my head hurts. I love how all night long I don't want to eat anything, and then, BAM, I'm hungry. I hate food, I wish it would die. I'm eating like, Honey O's, and "Persian Cinnamon Rolls"..Slash they're just regular cinnamon rolls that have gone stale. They're good..WHEN YOU HEAT THEM UP. you know what I really love? Besides my Misty's?..Those pretzels that you put under the faucet, and get wet, and then put in the microwave, and they're all soft..You know, like the kind you get Wal-mart..Thatwas a tradition when me and my mom ever used to go to Wal-mart was to go to the snack center, and she would get a BLT and fries, and I would get a pretzel without any salt..God, that salt was nasty..It was the days before SUPAH Wal-Mart..I hate Super Wal-Mart's it's so stupid..

Damnit, my cinnamon roll is still hot.

I don't know why I'm so hyped up. I've been reading alot of people's LJ's, some people only whine and complain about their life. BOO HOO. Life sucks, it doesn't always go your way, and when it does, it still isn't what you want. That's just the way life goes. I want to be with Ryan, and technically I am, because he's my "big brother", but, we're not together the way I want to be. Atleast I'm his friend. I think in the long run he'll make me a better person. I want to tell him that, without creeping him out. He's like, so amazing, lol, I'm obsessed, and at the same time I think I might be getting over him.

I know, I know, it's like only seven hours since my last post when I was bitching about him meeting some guy. But, when you sit up all night, and just think about stuff, you start to understand. I mean, in five years, I'll be 24, and he'll be 31. I mean, right now it doesn't seem wierd, because when a eighteen year old dates a twenty five year old, it's cute..But if a twenty four year old dated a thirty one year old it would be gross..Lol.Besides if we were in a long term relationship for five years, and then broke up, I'd be 24 and could still go out, and date, but, he wouldn't feel like doing it..Then again, what if he dated someone his age for five years, then they broke up? Probably not because even if they wanted to break up, they wouldn't, because they realised they're thirty one, and they'll never find someone again.

Basically, love sucks. We may never find the person that we're destined to be with..Sometimes I think that you're "soul mate", and the person you're "destined to be with" are two totally different people. Like your best friend, and your lover. And I hate when people are like..My boy/girlfriend is my bestfriend..EW. GAG. Get your head out of their ass for once, and go hang out with your friends.

I've barely touched my food..Uhg, I have to call work in like, five hours..And, even if I went to bed now, I wouldn't fall asleep until seven, and then I would only get like four hours of sleep. Lol, I might as well just stay up. I know I can do it, but, my head still HURTS. Uhg.

OH! LOL!LOL! My mom and sister thought I left the house last night, I turned off the computer screen, and laid on the couch when they were getting ready for work, and they thought I wasn't home. That's funny..I mean, my keys and my car is here..But, they still locked the front door. Bitches. Not want me to get back in?!

Honey Oh's are only good when they're not all hard and crunchy, because those bitches like, hurt my gums..AHAHAHA, kids start school on monday, I'm soo effin glad it's over!..At the same time I miss it..I can't believe it's finally here, I remember dreaming about finally being out of school, now I am, and it's nothing special, I just have to start being in the real world. Amber was being all depressed the other night when we smoked because she doesn't really have friends anymore. UHG, bitch, what the fuck am I? I know Amber doesn't feel the same way about me, as I do about her, but, still! Anyways, I think I'm gonna hop off here, and smoke..And, I dunna, read other's LJ's.

P.S. I ain't gonna eat that nasty ass cinnamon, it can eat me!

KISSES!<3<3

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